The Wall

Arrgghh so long without a post. Right first, A quick update-Back in Durham, term just started, should be revising, am happy. There you go.

I have become increasingly aware recently of 'The Wall'. It's kinda like 'The Man', but more bricky and less human. So what exactly is a wall? Well for a definition, I turn to the world of football. 'A wall is a line of people who stand in a row, to try and stop the ball from reaching the goal'. Well ok the wall IS human here, but bear with me. Basically YOU are the ball, the goal is...the goal, and the wall is the wall.

And like any decent wall, this wall is graffitied. 'What does it say' I hear you cry in desperation. Well it says 'I would *insert personal goal here* but *insert personal wall here*'. So basically the wall is apathy, the wall is reserve, the wall is comfort the wall is self-centredness, the wall is what drags us down and keeps us from being what we want to be.

For example, in revision for exams, in trying to help others, in the search for some kind of meaning, in trying to become better people, in trying to achieve anything in fact! It sets up a conflict in our minds. We want to, but we don't ACTUALLY want to. We would, but we can't.

So how can the wall be broken. Well, like any wall, it can crumble, and by spending years running into it, kicking it, chiselling away at it, it can be broken. Or we can ask someone bigger than it to lift us over.